justrun-.

~~it's good to be alive~~

tell me why my television's filling me with lies

i have totally no recollection as to why on earth i signed up for school nationals. both track and swim. you know i think i can practically throw my running shoes away now, at the rate i'm going.

100m brst today was disastrous. i did a better time in p6. the sad thing is that if i had done my NAG time, and my pb for who-knows-how-long-already, i would have gotten into finals. what a waste of time. i could have spent my time better in school, not missing any lessons. or at tri training. agh whatever. going around aimlessly now. i don't get it you see. i really don't.

now i'm scared for the rest of my events. i'm not motivated to try harder, i'm just plain freaked out that this whole series of races is going to destroy me. both physically and mentally. hah. terrific.

cheers to the worstest sch nats in the history of pat's life.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [21:11]

and took [20050705] strides

it's the passion that drives you